THE parents of the baby who died say "there are no winners" following the suspension of Penny Lavis.
Tomorrow (June 8) it will be three years since the Chelmsford couple, who the Chronicle has chosen not to name, lost their son Jacob.
"The loss of our first child is devastating, it's something we'll never ever get over, and the circumstances of how it happened were very traumatic," said the woman, a 31-year-old former HR administrator.
The couple say their grief has been building for the past few months as the anniversary approaches.
"We miss him every day and when we look at other children of that age, we think 'Jacob should be doing this for the first time as well'," said the woman.
"We've got friends whose children were born around the same time and it's still difficult for us.
"We have family and friends that have supported us every step of the way, but it has taken a very long time to come to terms with what happened."
The Chelmsford woman travelled up to London with her husband, a 34-year-old contract manager in Canary Wharf, every day of the hearing, which lasted for 20 days over an eight-month period.
"As parents, we felt it was the only thing we could do for our son," he said. "What happened, happened, it was completely out of our hands, but we wanted to know we had done everything we could to make sure it doesn't happen again – there are no winners from this."
They made a complaint to the Nursing and Midwifery Council, after dissatisfaction with Mid Essex Hospitals Trust's investigations into the incident, which they say has not issued any formal apology for what happened.
More than anything, they just wanted to know the truth of what happened that night, something they feel denied to them by Lavis' dishonesty.
"This will affect us for the rest of our lives," continued the 34-year-old. "We lost our son."
